I gotta admit, I TOTALLY wasn't expecting what happened with Karofsky. I mean, I always figure that anyone who goes out of their way to pick on a gay kid because they're gay probably has some self-hatred issues about their own sexuality confusion or whatever, but I wasn't expecting it to suddenly be all in your face about it with a KISS. and Kurt even tried to talk to him about it, but it wasn't happening. And i was ok with that and thought maybe it would just..fade into the background, as Glee frequently drops the storylines that could be so very interesting (Mercedes and Kurt as Cheerios, Kurt on the football team, BETH, who has barely been mentioned..also, what the hell was up with the weird Puck storyline, huh?)
admittedly, i didn't think much of the rest of that episode, but hey.
and then came this week's ep, which had little to no effect on me whatsoever (I tend to zone out the eps that focus on Shue more so than the kids), and frankly, i was only barely focusing on it.
Karofsky passes Kurt, and the LOOK he gives Kurt just blew me away. No dialogue, but in Karofsky's face is terror/longing/fear/revulsion/anguish and omg i nearly clawed at the screen shrieking.
The short conversation they had later was a nice addition, but the LOOK. omg.
And that? That is what I want to read. I want Karofsky/Kurt fic...not necessarily shippy, as bullyboy would have to do a LOT of work and soul searching and whatever to even be worthy of Kurt, but that look gives that possibility so much potential. I want fic where Karofsky WANTS and LOATHES it and fights it and can't help but notice Kurt because he is always THERE, head up, proud to be who he is and secure (mostly) in himself. See, I mean, at first, Kurt was just another gleek, right? basic bullying and some slushy and the dumpster. He bothers Karofsky, but Karofsky passes it off as just because of the gleek/loser/weird reason. But then, he joined the football team, and he was underfoot and there and wearing tight pants and Karofsky...notices.
And Kurt joining the Cheerios just made things worse, because he ROCKED that outfit, and Karofsky is attracted and horrified and denying, and so he shoves and pushes and ups the picking on to try and prove to himself that Kurt can be dealt with - that Kurt's out and proudness and strength that is always in Karofsky's face can be dealt with - Karofsky isn't attracted, no...
djsakldjisaojdisao. WANT, y'all. seriously. I want self hatred and longing and all of those things you see in Karofsky's face as he falls for this beautiful, fragile/strong boy in a town like Lima.